My little outburst here helped me calm down

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Anyone believe in angels? Not the LA Angels or guardian angels, but I’m talkin’ ‘bout the synchronicities and energies and feelings and collective unconsciousnesses that we perhaps float in. And that may affect us. Like I just had another random thought about this, which is this question: how is a belief in “angels” qualitatively different from a belief in “God” or a in collection of axioms and principles known as a religion? I suddenly felt that a blog post was necessary.

I am sitting here in my downtown Cleveland, OH Airbnb awaiting the start of a 3-day intensive seminar on teaching Smart Cycling, the League of American Bicyclists course. If I pass (I flunked last year in Eugene, OR), I will be an LCI (League Cycling Instructor) and my power to influence will be enhanced, presumably. After practicing my assigned 8- and 4-minute oral presentations, and after reviewing the flash cards for proctoring the on-the-bike sessions and noticing that I was dangerously close to paralytic over-preparation, I turned to email reading. I was part way through a Bari Weiss piece on the-most-important-stuff-of-the-week and was getting progressively more agitated and depressed when I glanced at my digital watch to find it displaying “3:33”. Which was notable in that an hour earlier, in the 3rd hour of repeated message exchanges to clear up an Airbnb scheduling fiasco, I glanced at the watch to see “2:22”. As we all know, these are “angel numbers” indicating respectively “balance, harmony, and divine alignment” and “divine guidance, encouragement, and the need to embrace creativity and growth”. (I didn’t know the particulars until just now looking it up). Notice the “creativity” part. Reading: not creative. Writing: creative. YES! My gut clench has softened, and I am smiling and not grimacing. This is good. What a powerfully crazy time we are (floating?) in. 

Balance, Maintain, Connect. Relax. Observe. Allow. Believe? Well, to believe or not is beside my point here, and I trust there is one. And my anxiety about not posting for 6 months is hereby relieved. Thanks for reading. 

Cleveland and Lake...Erie!


Comments

  1. TynanApril 11, 2025 at 3:41 PM

    Would love to do a bike ride sometime!

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  2. AnonymousApril 12, 2025 at 7:33 AM

    Great thoughts! We all need a little mood reset/correction right now.

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  3. AnonymousApril 14, 2025 at 12:05 PM

    Once again, you capture life as most of us experience it…an internal wild ride. Thanks for reminding me to notice.

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